The pain came suddenly. It started in her stomach and within seconds engulfed her entire body. The pain was so extreme that she fell to the floor curled up hugging herself. And just when the intensity of the pain increased to a point where the moans were to turn into screams, it disappeared. The pain vanished as quickly and suddenly as it came. As she rose gingerly to her feet, the relief she felt, almost immediately turned into disappointment.

She realized with the familiar tightening in her chest, that now that the writhing pain had subsided, she had to deal with the other kind of pain that she had had to bear for the last two years. The pain of loss and lonliness.

Thus began the bouts of self-infliction

I know a boy who makes me laugh.
I know a boy who loves animals.
I know a boy who is a wonderful friend.
I know a boy who a very good brother
And an even better son.
I know a boy who will help you,
Even if it means he gets into trouble for it.
I know a boy, who takes great pain,
To make every birthday special for you.
I know a boy who will spend all the money he has earned,
In buying gifts for his friends.
I know a boy who has the brownest eyes,
And the sweetest smile.
I know a boy who would never break my heart.
I know a boy, I know nothing about.

The Wait

A myriad thoughts were floating through his mind as he waited for her to enter into the room. Will she ignore him? Will she stab him with her words? Will she look at him like she did the last time, so many months ago, her face awashed with disappointment? Will he be able to take any of those reactions? Wasnt it punishment enough to have had to stay away from her for so long?

Suddenly she appeared, searching, her eyes quickly landed on him. As she walked towards him, his mind swam with all those thoughts, and then, suddenly, she quickened her steps and landed with her arms around him. "Did you miss me?", she asked her eyes shining. "More than you'll ever know " was all he managed to say.